Impossible to Not be Awake Now

It’s impossible to not be awake to what is appearing here, now, as this that is.

There are no words that will melt you nor any books that will cut you off at the knees, there are no hidden keys to what you already are, here, now, as this moment.

What is appearing cannot be understood or found through meditation, nor silence…it is not silence nor anything at all.

Awakening as what is includes all appearances, all thoughts about an imaginary past, present, and future.

There are no spiritual practices to morph you into what you already are as this perfect, edgeless, emptiness.

Nothing separate ever appeared…  there has never been a separate person, a personal thought, nor a personal and separate you.

There is only this appearing that cannot be named.


Update on Saturday Satangs

Update on Saturday Satangs: 

Satsangs are on Summer Break and will return October 2021 for in-person meetings for fully vaccinated attendees.  Your CDC Vaccine Record Card will get you in the door at Anita’s place.

3rd Saturday at 2pm at Anita’s – fully vaccinated friends only. 

October – 16, 2021
November – 20, 2021
December – 18, 2021



Our self-inquiry gatherings are for ardent pilgrims.  We discuss and explore the nature of what is self-evident, here, now.  We expose and grok the illusory nature and appearance of the personal self and rest in the spaciousness of aware presence, just this, here, now.

Many of us are searching for relief from the weight of incessant thoughts in our heads. We want inner peace and calm and have forgotten the simple wonder and aliveness we felt as children before we were taught to name, label, and claim what we perceive through our senses.

We are so convinced that accumulating knowledge is beneficial. It is this knowledge that is the hindrance to seeing what is self-evident. There is nothing to be gained by investigating non-duality nor is there any gain from practicing self-inquiry.  What is is all there is and isn’t. Self-inquiry will collide with and demolish the world you were taught and programmed to believe to be real and lasting.

Optional reading:

Perfect Brilliant Stillness – David Carse
Headless Way – Douglas Harding
I Am That – Nisargardatta Maharaj

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Eternity – Joseph Campbell

Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay

“Eternity isn’t some later time.  Eternity isn’t a long time.

Eternity has nothing to do with time.

Eternity is that dimension of here and now which thinking and time cuts out.

This is it.  And if you don’t get it here, you won’t get it anywhere.

And the experience of eternity right here and now is the function of life.

 Joseph Campbell


According to Albert Einstein’s theory of general relativity, time is just another dimension in space, traversable in either direction, and our human perception of moments passing steadily and sequentially is all in our heads.

I agree — time is a belief, a mental construction.  Widely believed, yes.  True, no.

There is only now, now, now and all else is a mental story about what has happened, what is happening or appearing, and what will happen.  Time is a mental construction that perpetuates the belief of being a separate and personal self.



Bart Marshall’s Latest Book

I am happy to share the news about Bart’s (my spiritual teacher) newest book — now available on Amazon.  I’ve already ordered my copy and it sounds like a page-turner.  I am sure this book will fuel deep and earnest discussions in self-inquiry groups.

Here is a book blurb from Bart’s website RealFacePress:

This is a book about spiritual enlightenment—what it is, how it happened for me, and how you might live in such a way that it could happen for you. Few undertakings are more pretentious than writing about Absolute Truth and the “path” to it. For starters, positioning oneself as an authority on the subject is obscenely audacious, and takes a lot of chutzpah.

Second, words cannot touch it, so no matter how well you might be able to choose and order yours, the end result will fall so far short of the mark it may as well be an outright lie. And yet, to have something informed to say about Truth and not speak it is almost impossible. To have True Nature reveal Itself to Itself in “your” presence is the greatest gift anyone could ever receive, and leaves you wishing that gift be given to everyone.


Suzanne Segal

Suzanne Segal

(1955–1997) was a writer and teacher about spiritual enlightenment, known for her sudden experience of self-realization which she wrote about in her book Collision With the Infinite: A Life Beyond the Personal Self.

Two years after her shift into a “sense of unity,” Segal relapsed into the uncomfortable state of constant anxiety she had first experienced. At this point she returned to exploring psychological themes from her childhood which included recovered memories of abuse and persistent migraines. Shortly thereafter, in 1997, Segal’s health began rapidly deteriorating, and she was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor. She died two months later that year, leaving many questions about the root cause of her experience unanswered.   source – Wikipedia

When asked Who I Am, the only answer possible is:
I am the infinite, the vastness that is the substance of all things. I am no one and everyone, nothing and everything— just as you are. – Suzanne Segal

From the perspective of the infinite it is obvious that the individual self absolutely does not exist. The idea that we have a self that controls, arbitrates, or is the doer behind our actions is absurd. – Suzanne Segal

The individual self is nothing but an idea of who we are. Ideas are ideas – and nothing more.  – Suzanne Segal