Roadmaps and Signposts
Our true nature is awareness, presence, consciousness, here now. Of course, this is not what we imagine ourselves to be. We’ve never been separate and the you that you believe you are is impersonal awareness appearing as a body you claim as yours. It’s the same for all appearances of life.
I write to describe and share the beauty of this awakening, how it felt and feels now, what it looks like, and what non-duality really is all about. You might look at this website as a simple non-duality roadmap with signposts for discovering and seeing what you really are, not what you have been told by others or what you believe you are.
I know you won’t believe it just yet but you actually are the pure presence of impersonal awareness. Your brain/mind and the ego keeps you believing you are a separate being since that’s the job of the egoic brain/mind.
These non-dual teachings and writings reflect the paradoxical non-dual teachings I absorbed leading toward seeing how easily I misperceived identity and reality. You may recall the historical non-dual teachings of Jesus the Christ, Rumi, the Buddha, Lao Tzu, Meister Eckhart, Wu Hsin and others as they describe awakening and realizing what simply is.
Language is relative, using subject and object, so describing non-duality, without subject and object, is nearly impossible but that doesn’t seem to stop these fingers from typing:)
Our original identity, our natural state, appears so effortlessly and intimately as beingness we simply overlook this aware presence…believing instead the appearances of an external world of subjects and objects projected by the brain/mind with us at the center as the perceiver, the me, the I.
The personal identity of the Anita character was shattered in 2011. A great paradoxical and enigmatic mystery provided surrendering and seeing beyond the relative brain/mind. You may read more about that awakening story here.
The teaching and writings on this website point towards the perceptions, thoughts, and beliefs the relative and dualistic brain/mind uses to keep you believing you are a separate self where a separate self has ever existed and the self inquiry tools to help you explore for yourself, by yourself, what you actually already are…infinite, edgeless, aware presence.
There is no endpoint for uncovering what you already are. Upon awakening and seeing clearly there is no personal self, you will likely fall on the floor crying and laughing that you were so easily fooled into believing you were separate when it is so clearly evident you are not nor have you ever been separate.
In retrospect, knowing the back of the book answers does seems to help focus the inquiry into one razor sharp question — What is looking through these eyes, and how do I know what’s looking through these eyes without using thoughts, beliefs, and concepts told to me by others or read in a book? What is my direct experience of this here now?
For those committed to seeing truth, an inner light may eventually dawn after a deep and thorough self-inquiry process (lasting for many years or decades) has shredded the beliefs and concepts holding the personal identity in tact.
Something akin to Absolute Grace or Mystery shifts the lenses within the character which the character is powerless to modify. This mystery, this absolute beingness lifts the final veil while the observer falls through its illusory subjectivity.
So it appears the character can only do what the character does yet there is no personal willpower or ability to make changes. Please understand this this paradoxical truth– changing seems to appear but not to a personal being.
When you notice you are glued to YouTube non-duality videos, reading non-duality websites, and inhaling e-newsletters, and practicing self-inquiry, you likely have a tiny non-duality seed hidden germinating behind your heart that is growing and yearning to awaken what you really are as impersonal consciousness, as perfection, as peace, equanimity.